Whooo hoo -Victory is mine

Well I finally got this damn thing to work. Technology is great and all but I think it takes too long to do the simplest thing. We can put a man on the moon, treat terrible illnesses, but apparenty I'm too stupid to work my blog. Well thanks to Regina i have a spare tire on the blog wagon and we're heading down the road.
On a side note, I'd like to point out something that happened earlier to me today. This morning as I was enjoying my chocolate flakes and watching the Price Is Right, ol' Bob asked an older looking man how old he was. The man replied he was 85 and Bob acted as though this was amazaing. I'm sorry isn't Bob Barker like 80 or 85 himself. Not all of us can afford to have our blood changed every week and fake skin put on. That just annoys me, and now on with out showcase showdown.

The cold in the air

It's been getting cold recently as Fall begins to peak its head out and I see more and more sweaters and long sleeves. I've noticed this year that seasons seem to be lasting longer too. Or perhaps that's the cliche observation people make every year. "I don't think this _________(fill in season here) will ever end." I however love the fall. For some reason the majority of the good times in my life have revolved around the fall. I met my fiance in the fall, started school in the fall, and now I'm goind to end school in the fall. In my mind, the fall represents the infinite possibilities in life, never knowing what's in store. When I feel that my life is on the fast track and I don't take account of the day, one cool fall breeze can stop me in my tracks and make me take stock. I think by virtue of the fact that the days become shorter and nature is beginning to sleep, we as people seek out those closest to us. I truly believe that there is only one way to measure a person's life and that is by the quality of the relationships they have. The fall can strengthen those relationships and give them new life. The cold makes us seek another person to spend time with and get warmth from. Drinking something warm and just being with someone you love is the essence of life for me.

Sitting Underneath a Tree

Today in class we spent 20 minutes sitting outside on campus taking notes and observing campus. At first, I found this activity to be mundane. However, after a few mintues I let my mind drift and wander. That's when I truly began to feel inspired and a flood of ideas came to me. I could barely write fast enough. I began refelecting on my time here at Washburn and the state of affairs here today. I began asking myself hnoest questions about my life and just enjoyed the simple pleasure of sitting and feeling the cool breeze on my skin. I don't think we truly take the time to simply sit and listen to the environment around us and to ourselves. i truly believe there's a vocie inside of us that will guide us down the right path if we simply take the time to listen. Those 20 minutes did more to clear my mind and reinergize me than the last 6 months of my life.

Contemplating My Future

I sometimes find myself wondering off at the oddest times daydreaming about my future. I have always found it difficult to stay in the present. I think I have such an overanalytical mind that thinking about my future makes me feel like I have some measure of control over my life, when in reality, most of the time I don't. Not in the sense that my life is spinning out of control. More in the sense that one never knows when one's life will end. It's a more existential way of thinking about my life. I also believe these recent daydreams have been brought on by this being my last semester in school and all the uncertainty that comes along with that. I just feel like my life is changing everyday right underneath me. While in many ways I welcome these changes, it no longer feels like the future, it feels like the present. The days of wondering what I will be when I grow up, like I used to do as a child are over, and now I am grown up.

The second day of school

The first day of school is always the hardest, but I think the second can be just as challenging. I always feel so overwhelmed at the beginning of the semester. It truly is hard for me to take my life one day at a time sometimes. All of the work I have to complete this semester just piles up and it can seem impossible to get it all done. The only way I can get through this is to see the simplicity in other's lives and try and immulate that. For instance, my sister's new dog. Recently, she just purchased a new mini-poodle. This little creature, in the midst of such a crazy and chaotic world can show such happiness in the simple act of someone holding him. I realize this example is a little extreme, but I truly believe this can be a metaphor for our lives. If we as people can truly stop and enjoy the simple acts of someone or something else, than perhaps life doesn't have to be so complicated. Perhaps it is though this that we can see what are the truly important things in life and not feel so swept up in the everyday.